I am so incredibly in love, and in this moment, I couldn't be happier. I still fear the unknown, not the future, but the possibility that something could go horribly wrong, like Derek could be killed on the job because it's that dangerous. But finally, I am head-over-heels in love with this man. I have been for months, but I've been afraid to discuss it and jinx my luck, or fate, or blessing. But that's exactly it, I feel so incredibly blessed. I have the most amazing people in my life. I have the best family, friends, and co-workers that a girl could ask for. And now I have this wonderful boyfriend to throw into the equation.
Our relationship hasn't exactly been easy. Derek's got quite the story and it made my friends and family wonder what I was doing with this guy in the beginning. But he has become everything I didn't know I wanted. Our sexual chemistry is the most intense and passionate I have yet to experience with another person, and our connection is so incredibly special to me. Our bodies fit so perfectly wrapped around each other and the best place I have found in all the world is being held in his arms.
We've been apart for five weeks now and I finally had the opportunity to come visit him by a strange twist of fate. I've needed to see him, needed to see his smile that brightens a room like the sun bursting through clouds. I've needed to feel his body lying in bed next to mine and see his eyes twinkle when he looks at me, like I'm the only thing in the world that matters. I feel so deeply for him that I'm starting to cry as I write this. I knew I missed him very much, but I didn't realize it was this much. I need to live in the moment now and enjoy every second I get to spend with him and not dread tomorrow afternoon when I have to go back to Indiana and be away from him again. I just hope our next visit will be soon, and that the next few months pass quickly so this job will end and he will be back in my bed full-time.
I just love him so much and I'm so happy I can be here now. Life is beautiful.